ravi ([info]spindiket) wrote,
@ 2001-06-01 03:38:00
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Current mood:broken
Current music:soft-waft urban energy.. quiet.

what can you say?
contented causing careening sputtering beat beat
i'll wait indefinitely for this to level off

i guess one could be grateful for the passion. does starvation make one desperate? or are these fools' introspections.. creeping excuses to warrant another relapse? for all intents and purposes, you're only this sad once in your life. every subsequent engagement overwhelms the last.

and here i am being fatalistic, moments (hours? days? years?) after i promised myself (ironically) this mindset was done for.

our saturday fling (the beach cafe thing) is cancelled heretofore. so sad! it flowed from my head to the air by way of my hands, and you know i need emptying every once in a while.

let's see what dawns before the 9th. precedent surmises immediacy and improvisation.. but we can only be this delicate and forceful for so long.

graciously, your skin recedes
your hands grasp otherworlds
feet skipping rendezvous aplenty
until resting
immediately
upon the concept of joy
(quizzically).


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[info]softer
2001-06-01 10:37 am UTC (link)
the last. the (quizzically).

and wow; i am sorry for yr sadness.


and i know that i don't know you, but i just wanted to say
you're okay.

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[info]spindiket
2001-06-01 11:38 am UTC (link)
awareness is relative.

and i know that i don't know you as well as you don't know me .. but i also know that our perceived knowledge is only based on interpretation of (sometimes arbitrary) input.

and you? i perceive you as enthralling and thoughtful. pin it on your shirt?

love.

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[info]princessleia
2001-06-30 10:50 pm UTC (link)
you can empty to me. not into me, i don't think i could hold it all. but i'll look at it and nod, and take some, maybe.

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[info]spindiket
2001-07-01 10:19 am UTC (link)
a few nights ago, i pondered the possibility of emptying into someone. i lighted on a few conclusions :

1. i do not empty. mostly, i dilute the energies in my head with peace, or exhaustion.

2. anything that leaks out is destined for the ether. all energy that seems to pass into someone else is, in fact, their own energy spurred by the release of mine.

3. when you hold someone tight and make them shudder with your own shudders, and they don't recoil - rather, they reverberate - that is love.

also : if i could empty anything into you, my princess, it would not be my sadness. it would be life and energy and verve and explorative destiny.

i think the way to say this is : i am exhausted by the people i love. i am replenished by the people who love me.

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